Eating ducks

This weekend I got to do something that I never though I would get to do. I got to be a mom, I got to take our children and enjoy a first with them. We went to the park and fed the ducks. I watched our children squeal in delight the moment they saw the ducks. I watched our children almost fall in countless times. I captured my twins "accidentally" putting their toes into the water. I saw the wonder and amazement as they threw bread crumbs to the birds and coaxed them closer.  I laughed when they told their Grandma great with so much sincere excitement or pride that they just  got done "eatting the ducks." I am one super lucky lady to have such adorable kids.

Magical Moments

Nothing is more magical then seeing the world through your children's eyes (wait I have kids...WOW)! Last weekend we had a party to celebrate the adoption. We had snow cones, home made root beer, ice cream, hot dogs and hamburgers, potato salad and chips. I don't know that my kids got much food but they each got AT LEAST two HUGE snow cones, by the end of the party they were covered in. There were balloons that blew away before the party started and a pinata at the end. By the time everyone left our kids (I smile every time I say that) could barely keep their eyes open and they were covered in a sugary, sandy, grassy paste only mad by having fun and enjoying life. The wind tried to blow everyone away but other then that it was perfect!

The next day we went to the zoo....We heard this ALL day long and the Magic was just as magical every time I heard it!

The party was perfect, the zoo was perfect and my family is perfect. I am one lucky Mommy!

I can now breath!

They are ours forever!

Hunny, Sexi and Smelly!

RAD

So, we have recently learned that we will be living with RAD (Reactive Attachment Disorder). It makes me feel so relieved to get a diagnosis and to know why I have been SOO exhausted. I had been feeling like a failure I felt like I wasn't getting ANYTHING done but I was so exhausted and mentally drained by the end of the day. I have felt like I am herding cats and running around in circles when all anyone wanted was a triangle.

We have been doing play therapy, I have even go to be the one in the room with the child. We have seen HUGE improvements, and also we have seen a lot of set backs, and "triggers." I am learning things I never knew I needed to know and sometimes I feel like I am driving through an obstacle course at 100 miles per hour with my eyes closed.

These kids are teaching me a lot and I am lucky to have them.

Adoption Party

So, we are finalizing our adoption in 4-ish weeks, we will be having a party to celebrate this amazing moment. Here is where I need you, I am NOT a party planner, I don't have large pockets, and well I am not good at all this stuff. I need so cheap, fun, easy ideas on what to do for this party. I don't want it to over the top because I DON'T what to stress my kids out. I want it semi low key but fun too. This is a HUGE thing for us, it is even bigger then our wedding.  One thing I do have planned is shaved ice and it WILL be amazing and super tasty. Our party will be from 3-5 so I don't plan of feeding people a meal. I would love some tips, ideas and advice.

Thanks you! Oh, and thanks you too!

We have kittens!

Four little tiny kittens were born on my couch this morning in my clean laundry...

Court today.

Three more months and they are ours FOREVER! That seems like forever away and so close all at the same time! I still expect the rug to be pulled out from my feet at any time. It doesn't feel real and I am still afraid that something is going to happen.