Pain

Sunday was my birthday. It was a low key day. My mom insisted on making a cake, she is an amazing woman. My kids loved the cake. Yesterday we said goodbye to my dog of over 10 years. I didn't know it would hurt so much. This past year has sucked. I know I am supposed to find joy and gratitude but it has sucked. I was hoping that the coming year would be a little better, but it started off horrible. I am breaking, I am hurting and I am not sure how to fix things.